Lack of opportunity.
Hey. It’s been some time since I’ve posted something here. If you have been following me on Twitter (or recently, on Plurk), things are fast-moving. Studies have been hitting me in the head, as usual. I haven’t designed anything until recently. I’ve been broken-hearted, yet again (but before I brag about the specifics, let’s just leave it be) — the usual things that occur in this space-time continuum.
Blogging has been too boring for me nowadays. I mean, I like blogging, and I really want to see myself blogging about a lot of stuff, but that’s just not happening right now. Life has been too much of a routine. Sleep, wake up, take a bath, go to school, study, eat, go home, use the computer, then sleep again. It’s so tiring; I really want to get out of it as soon as possible.
I think I’m beginning to see the boring side of me — the person doing barely nothing in front of a computer. That’s probably why I’m getting bored in using it. I don’t do much in this computer. Every time I wake up, I take a look at it and update my instant messaging status to whatever I’ll be doing today. Depending on the day, I’d be watching episodes of The Daily Show and The Colbert Report, then view some random websites. In the evening, I’d look at Twitter then find updates for other blogs and Multiply sites, especially people on the school domain (or near it), like Gwen’s, Janine’s, and Gian’s (you can see their corresponding links at the main page, well except for Gian’s Multiply page). Recently, I have two web-design related tasks so I had to take off the random-website lurking, but that’s basically it. And to think that I’m doing this all day, everyday, even during class.
My parents are always playing a role in keeping me behind that by-the-rules line. I’ll give this as an example: I don’t get what I want because my parents don’t want me to, so what do I do? Earn it, right? But then they don’t even want me to earn anything, so what do I do? Nothing, right? So they go with that, and they’ll stick to it until I probably reach the age of 27. So, get this: I’m already in college, and I’m almost a year shy of graduating, but I still can’t get a taste of opportunity?
Well, I know these series of topics aren’t going anywhere anyway so I’ll end it here for a while.
So while I’m sleeping, please recommend me to other people who are in need of a web designer/developer so I can get my Samsung NC10 and make my life a little peaceful, okay? I’m currently doing a design for a dedicated game-server provider, thanks to my online friend and partner (and also the person hosting my sites), Jay. But even then, after I’m done, I’ll be jobless all over again, so make me otherwise. I’ll say pretty please if I have to.
Version four randomness.
First of all, let me welcome you to version four of the site. It’s merely an improved version three of some sorts, since all that’s changed is the new placements, the new main page (it kicks ass), the design in general –
And the new logo. It’s in pseudo-3D, and it looks cool, at least for me. And did you know that it took me several iterations of sketches until I got into the sort of final thing? On your right is the full paper of logo sketching I’ve had a couple days before starting the design. Well, you can see that the idea I’ve had is already there, I just needed the perfect one. Also, you can see that I suck at drawing stuff, let alone sketching stuff with straight lines, so excessive laughing isn’t necessary at this time (although you can smirk if you want to). Heck, I even went as far as doing actual 3D stuff, which turned out to suck more. No miraculous stuff or actual matrix calculus going on there, just pure randomness. And while speaking of randomness…
I learned this once in high school; that the freedom that you think it is, is not the “real” freedom. Freedom is not free will. It’s not about doing what you want to do. Freedom means you are doing what you ought to do — your deeds, your responsibilities, things like that. People often complain that they don’t have freedom, but the kind of freedom they’re looking for is erroneous. So guys, don’t do things that erroneous. At least for me, I can really say that I don’t have freedom, the deeds that I ought to do, simply because life doesn’t permit to. It permits me to do the complete opposite.
Most people (especially myself) don’t appreciate the stuff life has given all of us, and what other people has given to lighten our loads. Well, for example, a lot of people I know mostly ignore all the efforts that I’ve made through the years, which makes me think, “To hell with this; nothing’s happening.” And sometimes, they are ones being angry while I am the one who deserves to be angry at them (although I don’t provoke my anger anymore, especially recently, when it’s useless being angry).
So what do you think? Is your life leading to an erroneous dead end? Are you being under-appreciated by your peers? Does the new Derivatrix logo kick ass?
Edit: As for the Portfolio, I’m lazy. Period.
Some preparations.
So today, I’m preparing for stuff for the upcoming week (or weeks, depending on the impact). First of all, preparation is made because I’m about to be bombarded with school work again, so I have to put all of them in a calendar. I’ve tried them once — last term, first week, to be exact. It [not surprisingly] worked, but decided not to do it yet. Well, now’s the time to do it, I guess. Second, I don’t have a lot going on for this site, so I might as well revamp the whole thing again. Not much of a deal, though, since it will still run off of WordPress, and I got other [more important] priorities.
Priorities that are, sad to say, as vague as shadows on pure darkness. (See? That’s even ambiguous in itself.) I hope it’ll be clear by next week though, so don’t worry.
I’ll see you guys on October. I think it’s time for that “Wake Me Up When September Ends” song again. *Plays Caramelldansen instead.* xP
Hundreds, but not thousands.
What you are looking at right now is not a mosaic of a blue-green-colored watermelon, nor is it a large pit of death of words. This is simply a word cloud, kinda similar to the tag/category cloud you see at the very bottom of this page, and its purpose is to highlight the words that are frequently used in a selection. The selection is - you’ve guessed it - everything in this site. I’m feeling narcissistic already. (Not the disease, but I really wouldn’t mind if I had one.)
This graphic is made on Wordle. (I’ve attributed you and your service now, so don’t cry - or run to your lawyers - about it anymore, okay? So we’re good?) It’s quite easy to manipulate the colors, text, things like that, so thank them for having the blue-green text of awesome right in front of your faces. Oh, and have you noticed the most frequently used word I’m using? Yeah. Now I can prove to others that I can sound like an L.A. dude, without being an L.A. dude! Like, it’s not obvious that I’m doing this for, like, a lot of times already. So interesting.
Going off topic here - but I’m doing this in the middle of a final examinations week. Who in the right mind, or with the [rare] common sense, would do such nonsense? That’s right - me. I’m born to do things with perfect timing. Or lack thereof.
And I’m taking back my first statement. It does look like a blue-green-colored watermelon.
True: Three is better than two.
I can tell you now: This design has been the best thing that has ever happened in this website since I’ve thought of the first one. The coding and transforming went absolutely smooth, and the output is just — amazing. If you’d see my face right now, you’d already know.
Of course, version three wouldn’t be possible without version two. Although that was one of my biggest mistakes in design, I mean, the design itself is okay, but it just doesn’t look right. So I learned to its mistakes by just getting the ones that I think are the good parts of the design, and somehow improved them. Looks like I did okay with that. It looks like the first two designs combined, right? And yeah, the content. I’m too lazy/busy/[put adjective here]. I’ll do that when I’m not worrying about failing INTROSE or any other course. And for the bottom/sidebar part of the site, I’ll add more plugins. Probably - no, most likely - a Flickr plugin, ‘coz I got some pictures up there. Not graphics or any stuff like that, but real ones. You know, the ones taken by a digital camera.
Edit: Anything newer than the One La Salle blog entry was deleted, due to my utter instincts to delete them. I basically have made version two go *poof.* Hahaha